I'm looking back at my last post and amazed that it actually sounds coherent, given the state I was in when I typed it. Today was another bad day. I am feeling a little better now because the bub, at 5.30pm has finally succumbed to sleep and is knocked out on her bouncy chair.
Last night was a horror - she finally slept at around 10.30 pm even with the lack of sleep the night before. Woke up at 1.30, 2.30 and 6am. This is totally not normal for her. The 2.30 round kept me up 45 mins because she was wide eyed and bushy tailed and didn't look anywhere near sleep. This left me sleep deprived and grumpy this morning, with a throbbing headache at the back of my right eye socket to boot.
Her crying and squirming started around 9-ish in the morning. I dragged both of us to Great World in a bid to get her to sleep. She did briefly, and was in a pretty good mood from the time we got back till around lunch time, although she did not sleep.
Tried to get her to sleep from 1pm to 4pm. She would again, fall asleep in my arms but cry each time I put her on the bed. From 4pm I could take it no longer - chucked her in her crib and tried to get some shut eye - really needed to be away from her for a while - I seriously thought I was going to suffer a nervous breakdown. Couldn't sleep from all the crazy & terrible thoughts coursing through my brain (& the violent screaming in the background), so finally got up to go check on her - still crying of course.
The minute I picked her up, she stopped crying and was all jolly and smiley (!!!), with nary a tear on her face.
And despite my deeply dark and ugly mood, something amazing happened - I smiled. I actually managed a laugh out loud. I couldn't believe it - one little grin from the girl and everything was right as rain again. I think I laughed because I couldn't believe what a sucker I was. As I'm sure I will be again the next time this happens.
No pictures, although I know I'm very behind. This is about all I can manage for now.
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Dotty, I know I feel sleepy after I cry alot... so hopefully if you let Ellis be, she will be exhausted (i.e. sleep) after crying her lungs out!? Hang in there!
Hey. I totally can relate to you! I went through all that with my first girl - Ally. Infact much worse because I actually did not deal with the issue till she was 7 months. You're still early so do start to sleep train. You can read http://honeybunchofoats.blogspot.com/2006_12_01_archive.html (Breaking News: Angie is sleeping through the night) and also April and May 2005 The Quest for Sleep Entries.
The two girls are fantastic sleepers now, especially Angie who we trained right from the start. Good Luck and feel free to ask me anything.
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