This is It

We're on our own now.

No longer having the luxury of a confinement nanny to take care of Ellis' every whim and fancy (excepting feeds, which I naturally am in charge of since she is breastfed), Kisu and I are now in full parenting mode.

So how is it?

Thankfully, the transition was pretty smooth - she didn't cry for Mei-jie after she was gone - we had done a fair even while the nanny was around, so it wasn't as if she was suddenly thrust into unfamiliar hands.

Short of the first night where I woke up about 5 times (I wasn't able to fully figure out what her cries were for), a typical night sees me waking up 3 times for feeds/ nappy changes. Her last night feed is around 11pm, with feeds every 2 1/2 to 3 hourly intervals; the last one approximately at 7am. After that, we prepare her for her bath around 8am and the day begins.

Being sleep deprived is the worst - but other than that, I can honestly say that I love everything else about motherhood - cleaning up pee & poo, feeding, bathing, changing nappies - everything that I do with Ellis makes me happy. I love hearing her little sighs and gurgles, and watching her every little baby expression and movement.

Call me crazy, but I actually want to have another baby - I'm already missing her newborn moments :)